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This posting is specificly for my friends on my mailing list.

I've created this blog to voice my opinion and express the things that spawn in my head. I've invited you to review and comment on by blog postings. It's my way of keping in touch and letting you know that I'm still alive. Be sure to leave a comment letting me know what you think and how you feel. Aloha to all!

A little about me.

I've been diagnosed with Skitsophrania, bi-polar, manic depression, ADHD and anxiety. I have panic attacks all the time and the amount of rage in my system is outrageously overwhelming. I've been prescribed 3 different meds and I am hesitant to use them. For the most part, I can function well on a day to day basis but the difficult thing is socializing and finding the energy and motivation to visit with the ones I love. Sometimes I just have to force myself to go outside and socialize so that I don't die in my bed. It really hepls whenbooze is involved.

Speaking of booze... I haven't had a decent drink in God knows how long. Oh, how I long for a nice cold Tankerae on the rocks. At the beginning of next month, I'm going to take a trip over to my sisters house and party my ass off. I need a break from all the stress of my bullshit life. I deserve it. And I don't care what my doctors say or what my X-wife, father or parents in law think. I can either pop a bunch of pills that will turn me into a freakin' zombie or I can self medicate and have good time at doing it. Either way the feds get their tax money.

I guess the reason for my rebellion is because I have a low income and it's almost impossible to find psycho"therapy" treatment with my income. Sure, I can get plenty of perscription filled but where is the therapy? Good thing God takes care of the poor and the fools.