A little about me.

I've been diagnosed with Skitsophrania, bi-polar, manic depression, ADHD and anxiety. I have panic attacks all the time and the amount of rage in my system is outrageously overwhelming. I've been prescribed 3 different meds and I am hesitant to use them. For the most part, I can function well on a day to day basis but the difficult thing is socializing and finding the energy and motivation to visit with the ones I love. Sometimes I just have to force myself to go outside and socialize so that I don't die in my bed. It really hepls whenbooze is involved.

Speaking of booze... I haven't had a decent drink in God knows how long. Oh, how I long for a nice cold Tankerae on the rocks. At the beginning of next month, I'm going to take a trip over to my sisters house and party my ass off. I need a break from all the stress of my bullshit life. I deserve it. And I don't care what my doctors say or what my X-wife, father or parents in law think. I can either pop a bunch of pills that will turn me into a freakin' zombie or I can self medicate and have good time at doing it. Either way the feds get their tax money.

I guess the reason for my rebellion is because I have a low income and it's almost impossible to find psycho"therapy" treatment with my income. Sure, I can get plenty of perscription filled but where is the therapy? Good thing God takes care of the poor and the fools.