Old Poem Revisited: From So Far Away

Cant quite remember when I wrote this; bout 5 years ago. One of my better old ones so I thought I'd share it with y'all. As always, you feedback is desired and greatly appreciated so let me know what you think.

From So Far Away By M. Ali

from so far away, your face still shines
like fading sunsets so vivid in my mind
from so far away, does your voice still ring
in the back of my mind like sweet songs to sing
from so far away, I breath your sweet scent
of jasmine and roses, on winds do they hint
from so far away, I remember your touch
the gentle caress that I yearn for so much
from so far away, I still feel your presence
healing my soul with your comforting essence
from so far away, I cling to your love
like raindrops on lilies that come from above
from so far away, alone in my room
I pray to my god that I'll see you soon
from so far away, it feels like forever
to the day, I know again we'll be together

~Dedicated to A.C.A.~

Latest Poem By M.Ali

Here's my latest poetic creation. Tell me what you think.

Still Waters By M. Ali

My life like still waters
Looking up and drowning
murky , dark and warm
broken heart yet still pounding
I breath like a dream
forgetting at times
I speak with a scheme
in rhythm and rhyme
I sleep more than not
forgetting the day
awake in the eve
forgetting to pray
I long for His mercy
I plead for His grace
I long for a sign
a glimpse of her face
the memories burn
as my thoughts run in haste
thoughts of a time
and thoughts of a place
when life was carefree
and living was fun
when I was a king
and forever young
now life’s like a chore
more burden than boon
though I wish not for death
lest later than soon
for so many things
have I yet to achieve
and so many truths
have I yet to perceive
but how can I rise
from such a deep sounding
when my life is still waters
looking up and drowning

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I've created this blog to voice my opinion and express the things that spawn in my head. I've invited you to review and comment on by blog postings. It's my way of keping in touch and letting you know that I'm still alive. Be sure to leave a comment letting me know what you think and how you feel. Aloha to all!

A little about me.

I've been diagnosed with Skitsophrania, bi-polar, manic depression, ADHD and anxiety. I have panic attacks all the time and the amount of rage in my system is outrageously overwhelming. I've been prescribed 3 different meds and I am hesitant to use them. For the most part, I can function well on a day to day basis but the difficult thing is socializing and finding the energy and motivation to visit with the ones I love. Sometimes I just have to force myself to go outside and socialize so that I don't die in my bed. It really hepls whenbooze is involved.

Speaking of booze... I haven't had a decent drink in God knows how long. Oh, how I long for a nice cold Tankerae on the rocks. At the beginning of next month, I'm going to take a trip over to my sisters house and party my ass off. I need a break from all the stress of my bullshit life. I deserve it. And I don't care what my doctors say or what my X-wife, father or parents in law think. I can either pop a bunch of pills that will turn me into a freakin' zombie or I can self medicate and have good time at doing it. Either way the feds get their tax money.

I guess the reason for my rebellion is because I have a low income and it's almost impossible to find psycho"therapy" treatment with my income. Sure, I can get plenty of perscription filled but where is the therapy? Good thing God takes care of the poor and the fools.

Is it possibile to be in love with more than one person at a time?

Check out this interesting answer on Yedda

Is it possible to be in love with two people at ...

The simple answer is yes. One must truly understand what love is and what it means to be "in love". As I understand it, love is a complicated issue that can't be summed up in one sentence or generalized to satisfy the general populous of society. Love is more than an emotion. Love can be felt, given, desired and is a concept that is made up of many other elements such as compassion, understanding, sensitivity, affection, sexuality, trust and even sacrifice and pain. There is no rule book or standard code governing who one can or should love or how many one can love at a time. The human heart is a complex application and as we only use 10 to 30% of our brain capacity, we've only begun to understand the depth of the human heart, not to mention the Heart of God. Even understanding of the human psyche is incomplete, disputed and can not be generalized. We are all as unique and respond to our environments and our stimuli uniquely as a fingerprint.

We are programmable and vulnerable animals of subjective intellect. I may adopt or be conditioned to respect a philosophy or code of monogamy or we can live a less religiously or culturally restrictive life and with an open non-prejudice spirit that is receptive and giving of oneself to more than one partner. This is not just lust! If your emotion and thoughts are invested into more than one person and you wish to be with both of them because of what they both offer emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually then that's just the way you feel weather you parents or your friends or your preacher or the presidents thinks it's right or wrong.

I have myself been in love with more than one person at the same time. They were best friends and for almost 2 years the 3 of us were very close and nearly inseparable. I'll call them "L" & "B". L was my girlfriend that I was madly in love with for many reasons. She introduced me to her best friend B and we kicked it off instantly. B quickly became my best friend. They both possessed similar qualities that I appreciated and adored in both but also had unique characteristics that I cherished. I soon found myself having a great amount of love and compassion and affection for both of them. I wanted to protect them both and became very emotionally vulnerable to them both. I told them both that I was in love with both of them and it was difficult for everyone at first. We talked it out and came to a mature understanding. I was even sexually attracted to both of them and almost had a manage tux. I never did hook up with B but the fact of the matter is that I WAS IN LOVE WITH THEM BOTH! I have been sexually attracted to or lusted after more than one woman at a time and have not been in love with any of them. I am a man, of course. But this situation was unique. And I am not the only person who feels this way.

Most people are programmed with a Judaio-Christian, Republican mind set that says you have to be a monogamist but the truth is that there are a multitude of cultures and religions that support and defend my argument much more impressively than I, with more grace and clarity. You must find the truth for yourself and know if you can cope with that type of lifestyle and if your potential partners can as well.

Topics: mate, lover, you

Answered by Wise Ali on July 22, 2008

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Frustrated At Being Broke

This is CEO M. Ali of Wood Works Entertainment & Reality Spin Publishing and this is a spontaneous blog entry. Sorry if my thoughts seem incomplete and random because they are.

I am feeling highly frustrated because things are not going as planned for me. I set a goal for myself that I would be a millionaire by the time I was 31. I have about 8 more months and as of today I only have about $60 to my name. I'm about to go spend 5 of that on some booze to calm my nerves.

What would make me feel a lot better about my life is if I could have the right people hear my music and like it and buy it; a lot of it! But until that happens I'll just keep doing what I love and make music weather or not anyone listens. I listen, I love it and that might just be my success.

My Girl: A poem written by M. Ali while incarcerated in DC Jail

My Girl

By M. Ali

my girl, a drop of sunshine , a may flower blossom
a bundle of felicity, my seed, my flesh and blood
my prosperity, my destiny, she gives me purpose
she gives me life direction and keeps me grounded
she is a miracle of hope, my gift from God
my passion, my beloved, my precious beauty

i love her more than grace, more than mercy
i bask in the warmth of her innocence
i dream of her brilliance
she is a fine creature, she glows with possibility
she operates with genius and curiosity
she discerns with perfect wisdom
she speaks to me with smiles and soft touches
she compliments my days and inspires my nights

The Importance of Frienship

People closest to me call me Monnie, the name my mother gave me so it means a great deal of affection to me. She was killed when I was 6 years old but is still alive and well in my heart...

Growing up with one parent was difficult at times but father managed the best he could. Fortunately we had tremendous help from my very large & loving family. However so, we still faced great challenges. One of the biggest for me was always having to move around. This made it difficult for me to develop long lasting & meaning relationships. I wound up going to 6 different elementary schools and never stayed for more than a year in the 3 high schools that I attended. Even with such doubtful odds, I did manage to make a few meaningful friendships that surpassed the boundaries of time & space. In my heart, for everyone that I can remember sharing a joyful & touching moment with me, I will always maintain a space for them. But, there are some who have proven to be much more special for me. Those are the ones that I can remember befriending & embracing me unconditionally, never judging and never refusing to forgive me for something I said or did while angey or drunk. Those are the ones I think of daily and pray for nightly. The greatest of them is Anisah. She has proven to be the least judgmental, most forgiving & most loving. My first born daughter truly is my best friend...

Friendship is one of the most important concepts for me. Within my dearest friendships, affection, honesty, humor & patience are qualities that are always present and abundant. Now I am 30 years old & after much analytical self reflection, I’ve discovered that I can count on one hand how many true friends I have. And as I continue to contemplate those relationships & consider how much older everyone is getting, the more I realize that the qualities that make my friendships strong and fulfilling are dissolving faster than I’d like. Perhaps with all of our own personal problems like our love life, kids, finances & maintaining psychological stability, we reprioritize our friendships as secondary or disposable relationships. When we do this, we all loose out. If we were to realize how very important strong and lasting relationships ware, we could begin to understand that having those friendships would help with dealing with the kids, finances & even our psychological stability. But alas, we continue to suffer from our own ignorance and apathy. I suffer. I persevere.